I dont know how long this connection will last since im riding on temporary access. I talked to the car shop about my vehicle and the guy was a total asshole! He wouldnt even discuss it with me when i asked him if my car could be done today. I have to wait until Monday for them to even look at it. I hate rude people.

So i have had one hell of a time. My car broke down and i had to get it towed off campus. I have no idea how much that is going to cost. My friend said he would fix my computer because i couldnt get the printer to work and he ended up putting a pirated version of xp on it. The school blocks all pirates software so i cant get on the internet.

I have had a crappy week.

Im hoping things shape up.

I also have two tests this week two that i need to study for.

I need to keep thinking positive. Im really thinking about going to the student health center. Im extremely depressed. The voice inside of my head is getting louder. I dont know whats wrong with me, one minute im up and one minute im down.

This weekend im going home. I really need to see my dog and bring some more of my things back up here. I dont know if its exhaustion or what but im sick of school! I think im just tired because ive been going non stop since i got here. I finally get to see my little Twiggy!

I feel stupid now, i told my friend that i liked him. I so should not have done that. Things like that dont work for me. I bet he never wants to talk to me again, what a travesty! (i know im being a little dramatic). I guess ill see today what he has to say. Hes like a timid forest animal so he may not say anything at all.

Oh, i also did the breast installation piece for that girl and it was pretty exciting. I had my boobs plastered down and now they are immortalized forever in plaster. Very cool.

Today was a nothing day for me. I did some errands and hung out at Christians. I got some much needed school supplies. I think after this weekend im going to break away. Im just at a totally different point in my life now. I can already see that were growing apart. I think hes oblivious but im well aware. I have a HIM street team meeting tomorrow at five and im pretty excited. Im going to try to shop around and buy some clothes. As of right now i dont have much to wear. I need to bring a bunch of clothes from home. I like to shop around at thrift stores and i hear San Antonio has a pretty good selection. I have to get up at nine because Matthew is suppose to be here at eleven. This weekend is definitely a double edged sword.

So im finally down here in San Marcos. Ive been down here for some time so im pretty much adjusted. I love the San Marcos/Austin area, its really chill. All these dirty happy hippies are down here and i love it. I dont think i ever want to leave this area. Its a place thats perfect for me. My classes are pretty easy except for math, its a bitch. I am studying and doing somewhat better than i have before. Ive met some pretty interesting people. Ive got alot of friends so thats good.

This weekend Matthew and i are going down to San Antonio, i just cant stay away. I love him and always will. I think this weekend im going to get my nosed pierced and dye my hair. I dont have the money so im going to ask him to pretty please pay for it. I know hes in a pretty tight situation money-wise to we will see. I dont know why i even try to break away from him because i know its never going to happen. I just know that we are at two different places and it cant possibly work out, but i keep going back living in a dream. I have found someone i like down here but theres no point and even trying, he doesnt like me. We have egos to match and he has as many issues as i do, but of course he doesnt like me. We could rock and roll like angry angels ..(i have no idea what that means). I actually though dont want to be involved with him because of the sex so much is as its for a emotional connection which i know alot of people will find that strange. The only thing that really pisses me off is the fact that he think he knows whats going on with me and he has no idea as most people do the same thing. I dont think that anyone but Matthew would want me anyway lol

I have a great job down here i forgot to mention, my boss doesnt even make it seem like a job. Its so laid back i have no problem going to work. The people who work there are super friendly. I really like my job strangely.

Im also involved in this really fascinating art project. This art major is going to take a mold of my breasts in plaster of paris and shes making a wall of all of these breasts. Its going to be displayed in the art department building. Across everyones breasts we make us a sentence that is written across them. Its really cool and im really excited about it. Im doing it on Monday.

I have:

1.Paid for this semester at Texas State, got my parking permit, and secured a job on campus.
2.Seen Harry Potter.
3.Bought a bluetooth and the new White Stripes album.
4.Bought all of my dorms stuff.

I leave on August 16th. That is the official date of my freedom, im SO ready! Kelly and i just got through seeing Harry Potter.

This is a conversation Kelly and i just had about Harry Potter. I know its odd.

vampiresskellyy (12:28:45 AM): Try It...
vampiresskellyy (12:28:45 AM): Lol
lipsticktraces89 (12:29:15 AM): haha, I wonder how many people noticed the host wasnt moving his lips?
vampiresskellyy (12:29:56 AM): Omg Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:29:58 AM): It Was Too Much For Him To Handle At Times
vampiresskellyy (12:30:38 AM): Noone But Us Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:30:39 AM): Why Do We Always Notice The Strangest Things
lipsticktraces89 (12:31:16 AM): i dont know, i dont know what im going to do this semester at texas state without you lol, i dont think anyone can match the two of us together.
lipsticktraces89 (12:31:36 AM): were a double threat at the theater, people were so offended today.
vampiresskellyy (12:32:35 AM): I Know
vampiresskellyy (12:32:38 AM): Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:32:38 AM): That Guy Was So Mad
vampiresskellyy (12:32:43 AM): He Was Shaking His Head At Us Lol
lipsticktraces89 (12:32:44 AM): Yes! Ville and Jonna are over, now i can rape him!
lipsticktraces89 (12:33:05 AM): we should have told him to yield.
vampiresskellyy (12:33:51 AM): Its About Time!
vampiresskellyy (12:33:54 AM): Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:34:02 AM): Man Someone Drank All My Koolaid
vampiresskellyy (12:34:19 AM): Im Offended
lipsticktraces89 (12:34:23 AM): dude why do they keep eating and drinking all of your things!
vampiresskellyy (12:35:07 AM): I Dont Know
vampiresskellyy (12:35:07 AM): Bitches
lipsticktraces89 (12:35:18 AM): Next time you come over im going to stock you up on food.
lipsticktraces89 (12:35:35 AM): I think you need the power of flint on this one.
vampiresskellyy (12:35:57 AM): Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:36:30 AM): I Do
vampiresskellyy (12:36:34 AM): They Piss Me Off!
lipsticktraces89 (12:36:59 AM): i wish i had a broomstick i could just fly around on
lipsticktraces89 (12:37:31 AM): then we could fly to a distant land
vampiresskellyy (12:37:39 AM): Hahaha
vampiresskellyy (12:38:12 AM): I Want To Be A Part Of Harry Potters World
vampiresskellyy (12:38:13 AM): They Have Good Cakes
lipsticktraces89 (12:38:42 AM): His world looks like its so much fun, those kids are out of control.
vampiresskellyy (12:39:33 AM): Hahaha
vampiresskellyy (12:39:33 AM): All Their Sex And Drugs
lipsticktraces89 (12:40:00 AM): I would go into their little hidden room and make condoms and a bed appear.
lipsticktraces89 (12:40:27 AM): and ville valo, and maybe jack white on the side, and possibly gerard.
vampiresskellyy (12:41:15 AM): I Bet They Used That Room For Group Sex
lipsticktraces89 (12:41:48 AM): You know that Harry Potter was the leader, he showed them all how a "real" man does it.
lipsticktraces89 (12:42:34 AM): Hes a out of control teen, showing his balls to people,getting raped, and having violent masterbation.
vampiresskellyy (12:42:34 AM): Yup
vampiresskellyy (12:42:35 AM):
vampiresskellyy (12:43:10 AM): Hahaha Violent Masturbation!
vampiresskellyy (12:43:37 AM): That Movie Wasn't Appropriate For Children
lipsticktraces89 (12:43:45 AM): He did have violent masterbation, he almost ripped his penis off! Look how he was sweating and jerking around.
vampiresskellyy (12:44:20 AM): It Should Have Been Rated R
lipsticktraces89 (12:44:49 AM): I think J.K. Rowling really intended that for adults, or maybe she didnt and she would have that look that dumbledoore had when harry was getting raped if she heard us.
vampiresskellyy (12:47:35 AM): Lol
vampiresskellyy (12:49:53 AM): Well Im Gonna Go To Bed Now So If Joseph's Mom Gets Here I'll Be Sleeping And She Can't Yell At Me
lipsticktraces89 (12:51:21 AM): ok, if you need food come over here and eat, we could feed a country, bye.

I just found out the cure is going to be in dallas in oct, of course i cant go because its a week night and ill be in san marcos. This is gay! Finally i get another chance to see them and once again its ruined. I might be able to find some way to go but i doubt it. I guess ill just have to wait for round three unless they decide to add a austin tour date. The killers are suppose to be here in sept but im not going to get to see them either! Im really pouting over this, two great bands and im cut off from both of them. I guess thats the price you have to pay to get a education. In the long run is the cure going to give me the cushy defense lawyer job that i want? no? well i guess ill just have to look at it that way or else ill go insane.

My student loan hasnt gone through because they keep needing more paperwork. I put on the my FAFSA that my grandpa is deceased so it opened up all these problems for them. I would have been better off just not saying anything. The form i have to turn in now takes another two weeks to process then it takes five working days for the promissary note to process. Times a wasting we only have until August 21st to get this done people! Honestly i feel in some ways im totally not ready to go to college. When i stepped onto the campus i was like whoa this is a huge upgrade from Joshua. Orientation was murder because it was so hot and sticky, but i did it so now i have my schedule and my student id and my hall assignment. My last task is making it through the first year. If i can survive the first year then ill be ok.

I also finally put my myspace back up. I thought oh well since im going to college i do really want to stay in touch with these people. It wont hurt anything.

Graduation was today now im FREE!!! No more ghetto Joshua High School. I also got my hall and roommate assignment from Texas State. I also got some stuff for loans that i have to apply for. Im going to be free here very shortly. I was at the ceremony today and it finally hit me, this is it. I looked around and i was just in shock. I dont know what to do with myself now because im set into this routine in high school. Now im just cut loose and i have to figure out what im going to do with the rest of my life. After the ceremony i left as fast as i could. I figure if i want to talk to any of those people i can just go on Myspace.

IM FINISHED BITCHES!

Spiderman 3 is the best of them. Emo Peter Parker is so hot! Graduation is so close. Its only a week away. Finally i get away from this ghetto hell hole. August is getting closer and closer. Ive got to work my ass off if i want to go to law school. The law school i want to go to only admits about 450 students out of 5,000 applicants. Ive got to make sure i keep my grades us at at texas state. Its all worth it to me if i can end up living comfortably and never having to worry about paying the bills.

I could be getting ready for the prom today, but you know how that goes. So while everyone else is having fun with their friends and getting ready im going to:

sit home and cry
play pokemon
dye my hair
touch myself

How much fun! Im going to have ten times the fun i could have going to the prom with my friend! (sarcasm)

Well i stayed home from school today because i was pretty deppressed today again. Last night we had a major water leak and we were without water this morning. We dont really have the money to pay for all the water that leaked out. The meter was just spinning, i dont know what were going to do. Ive been playing pokemon like a fiend all day. I got pearl on sunday and ive been like a madman playing it.

Ive only sold one thing in my etsy shop so if yall want feel free to buy a checkbook cozy or something, i need money. I have to sign up for orientation for texas state and i have to pay for it. I dont know how much its going to be yet, but probally more than i can afford.

www.funkyhats23.etsy.com

This weekend was fun. I got to get out my animalistic desires and i got a shake. Tommorrow i have to go see my dad. I dont want to. I get tired of having to go to all the way to wichita falls to see him in a freaking prison. I have no telling how many years of this to do. I also got some stuff from texas state this weekend to register for FIG (freshman interest group). Im going to sign up because i think it will help me with my studys.

OMG pokemon comes out tommorrow! Im going to be bustin out the pearl version all over school! (i know im a nerd i dont need anybody to rub it in).

Since im a senior i dont have taks tests. The school still made seniors come from 9:30-11:00. We just sat in the gym the whole time. Tommorrow kelly and i are finally going to munch down on tai pan. ive had a craving for chinese for so long. Now im just playing my Nintendo DS and chatting on the net like a nerd.

Check out my Etsy shop bitches.
I sell everything i make:

WWW.funkyhats23.etsy.com.

Be amazed.....

Haha! ive already sold one hat!

So i just sold two dickies dresses on Ebay. Both people never responded to my invoices or emails so i reported it to Ebay. Finally one girl make up some excuse she just forgot blah blah blah. The other girl i havent heard a word. Obviously she is going to be a asshole and not pay me. You just dont do that! You dont get on Ebay and start bidding on stuff and never pay for it. Did you ever stop to think that it might be someones income or college savings your fooling with? Well after you report the unpaid item to Ebay they open a dispute. After 8 days you can report back to them that the buyer still refused to contact and pay and you get your money refunded and the buyer gets a unpaid strike. Apparently thats what im going to have to do with this other girl. I had a couple of dickies dresses and i havent worn them for years and most likely i have grown out of them so i thought what the heck? Ill just put them on Ebay! I guess its backfired on me.

Heck yes in the morning im leaving for Austin. Im going to do some major shopping and get stuff for my dorm. It tis almost here!

Ive realized that i do really need to ge a job. I only have 9 bucks in my wallet and 456 in college savings. Im just so lazy. I also found out today that my car has been recalled and i have to go take it down to the dealership and they have to do some kind of maintence on it. Some kind of safety feature isnt working in the 2006 cobalts so they have to like freakin remove the roof and do something with the seats. It pisses me off. I really like my car. Theres no telling when this is going to get done because they recalled my grandpas truck once and it took him like a month to get it fixed. The dealership kept coming up with reason why they didnt have the parts to fix it. They better not do that with mine or im going to let out a can of whoop ass on them. I feel very abused at this point. Ive been driving around all this time on the highway not knowing that i could be blown away if i even get hit in the tiniest way. Actually its kinda funny when i think about it that way.

Im still on my quest to find a finnish man.....

So ive decided from this day on im going to take my quest to find finnish man and move to finland into action. Im pretty sure that ill have to go to college first but that wont stop me from finding a finnish man....I read that they like to keep to women from their own country, but that will change....

I stayed home again today. I was suppose to go on a trip to Austin this weekend but its been moved to next weekend since my grandma is sick. I decided since i was going to leave today that i might as well stay home like i was going to. So ive sat around all day and tonight i get to see my man, of course hes going to take me to steak and shake.

I watched Eraserhead last night, That movie is so messed up. Ive always been a David Lynch fan and ive wanted to see this movie for awhile and i finally bought it and i LOVE it. I have no idea what its about, i mean i have my own theorys but i dont have any definate answers. I think my favorite part is when the lady in the radiator sings in heaven everything is fine. If i had limewire i would download it but i can get any music downloading programs to work on windows vista. Matthew hates David Lynch so i have no idea why im seeing him because im pretty sure that i need a man who can understand me, which means they have to understand David Lynch, but i dont exactly understand him myself, does that make any sense? Im just kinda rambling on, ill stop now.

Ive got to find scholarships!

So i stayed home from school today because i just couldnt bring myself to get out of the bed. As long as your absence is excused i dont think they really care. I had a pretty good weekend, i went to matthews and he took me to steak and shake then we had to go to walmart so he could buy the new James Bond movie. Saturday i tried to get a hold of kelly but freaking i called her house and her mom like attacked me. I asked her if Kelly was there and she was all "no! Kelly is at HER house!" I then asked her, or i tried to if she meant josephs and she hung up on me in mid sentance. So i didnt get to see kelly. I dont know what her mothers problem is but i cant stand rude people. So now im at home and i slept until one. Im missing friday too because im going to Austin for shopping. I dont see the point in going to school when all i do is sit around all day. The only class i do anything in is college english and the rest of my classes are just fillers. How boring! I guess i have to go sometimes to get what work they are doing and get a grade. Im just counting down the days until August 19 when i leave for Austin for good!